Hey everyone! I'm so sorry I haven't kept up with this blog in a month. So here I am! I want to share my struggles as an MG. I know that every missionary girlfriend has their struggles so here's a glimpse of my struggles. Earlier in my youth I started steady dating when I was 16 and I just jumped right into it because I've seen how much fun steady dating to be, so I started dating this guy that I thought was amazing. I don't want to name names for confidentiality. So I started dating him and it was great for a awhile until he broke with me on our 7th month anniversary over the phone. Well, fast forward until recently we became friends again and he knew about James and such and I don't know he has been flirting with me until I told him to stop. Now I just think that maybe this is a sign that Heavenly Father needs me to cut ties with is guy I dated because there's a reason why we broke up . You know its hard because I've never really stood for myself and even for another person too because I've always been a "people pleaser". Which you know what I'm done with it! Ever since James has left I've had to rely on myself and defend myself and not only me but him too and our Amazing relationship! I know Satan is working hard on me because he knows that James and I are amazing together, but doesn't know me well enough has my Father in Heaven does!! I know that if I have faith in my Heavenly Father that everything bis going to be okay!! Always remember that!! In D&C 121:7-8, "My son peace be unto thy soul; thine adversity and thine afflictions shall be but a small moment and then, if thou endure it well, God shall exalt thee on high; thou shalt triumph over all thy foes." With God NOTHING is IMPOSSIBLE!! You know its also hard being an MG especially if you're an international MG because packages take forever and letters too!! I used to be so jealous of the state side MG'S but then Heavenly Father again blessed me with novel emails! I think of my emails as my letter of the week! I know that Heavenly Father is mindful of me and knows the desires of my heart and want I want to succeed in life he's also very aware that James and I are mean to to be!! I truly love being an MG!1 Most days are good but every MG has those days where they just want to crawl into their little hole and just forget the world!! But hey that's life and you just have to make the best of it!! Its also hard because I'm a Junior in high school .... Yes I'm 18... Yes I got held back twice.... Thats for another day. Anyway its hard because I don't wanna go on double dates to dances because it wouldn't feel right to me and I'm trying not to lock up myself in a closet I just dont feel that its a good thing for me I just feel that Heavenly Father just needs to wait for James and I'm perfectly okay with that plus, I'm keeping myself busy with preparing myself for a mission!! I know that it'll be hard saying goodbye again but hey this time it won't be two years just a year an a half which I see it better on him than for me to go and serve 2 years which I'll be fine with , but I know that Heavenly Father knows that I want to be with James for all eternity and same goes toward me! So Message is It may be hard but its so worth it!!!! Keep going!! only 480 Days to go!!
