New Changes

James told me once in his email that change is always good because if you keep doing the same routine you're gonna go crazy. Its very true. I was reading some of my old post and wanted to update on my decision to serve a mission. As of last Christmas, I thought I was so sure about going on mission. I was preparing, saving money, and pretty much doing everything in my power to prepare myself to be the best missionary I can be. I started to feel guilty or something was just out of place and every time I thought about a mission or someone will bring up the topic it make me feel extremely uncomfortable like a mission wasn't meant for me and I felt so distraught and felt like I was letting everyone and myself down. I was mad because if God didn't wanted me to go on a mission why didn't he tell me the first time but after a lot of prayer, scripture studying, and going to the temple for guidance. I felt that I'm already serving my mission that is my life and I'm already preparing for the greatest mission of my lifetime. MOTHERHOOD and MARRIAGE. I still have the desire to serve but if Heavenly Father has a better plan for my well being. Who am I to argue? He knows me better than anyone else. I know the world sees motherhood and marriage as something you can put off. I beg to differ! Nothing can more joy into a person's life than a child's laughter or a tender kiss from the one you love. Sure money is great and having money but back is a great idea and I support it, but money can't bring you happiness. Being surrounded with ones that you love dearly is the greatest joy and security a person can experience. President Howard W. Hunter said "Motherhood is near to divinity . It is the Highest. Holiest service to be assumed by mankind." I've always love children and being around them brings me so much joy. Heavenly Father has given the greatest callings in my preparation. A year ago I was called to serve in the Activity Day's and this year the Primary Presidency assigned me to teach the sunbeams and the sunbeams and my activity day girls have taught me more than I have taught them. I know its clique but its so true! I feel like once I let go of serving a mission and giving it to God he has opened my heart to the idea of marriage and motherhood and I couldn't be more excited for spending lifetime and eternity with my children and with James! Its going to be amazing and I don't care what everyone else. Sure I'll be marriage towards the end of my freshman year of college, but its going to be okay because when a man and a woman are sealed in the temple they can face the greatest adversity together! As Elder Jeffery R. Holland said "Marriage is the most trusting step in any human relationship. It's a real act of faith. The very nature of the endeavor requires that hold on to each other as tightly as you can can and jump." I already trust James with my heart and life so just imagining our life together in marriage is going to be so bliss because with college I don't deal with stress very well at all. Sometimes I have panic attacks and I'm gonna need him to help me get through college emotionally at least but I know he'll be willing to help me in any way with love and care. New changes can scary and exciting but with God on your side they can bring so much joy you couldn't even imagine! 12 More Days!!!  

2 Weeks Left!

First, I want to apologize for not updating my blog this last year. I got a new job and with senior year and getting ready for college, and James coming home soon! Its a lot to take in. So James has been district leader in 2 of his areas!! He's loved being a district leader! I'm seriously so proud of the man that he has become and how he has let our Heavenly Father transform him from being a boy to a man. Its like in Beauty and the Beast when the transform because Belle taught him how to love. (I'm a huge Disney nerd!) Expect James has never been the beast haha! James has always had the gift of loving others but the Lord has shown him a different light and he has embraced it with the proud of God on his side he has changed the lives of the people that he has been in contacted with and now with the Cordoba Temple finished and dedicated the people who has waited and has accepted the gospel of Jesus Christ can finally progress for their eternal salvation! James has done so much good in his mission and people thought I was going to be a distraction but all of this time he has never been distracted! My love and support has kept him going and keep pushing forward! He's ready to come home, but I keep telling to just hold on a little longer!  I'm so excited to have my 6'2 blonde cutie back home in my arms! I've 714 days for him!! I can't believe I'm actually saying this!! He's coming home!! What a wonderful feeling it is to know that in 2 weeks there will be no more goodbyes but only good nights. There will be long hugs and tender kisses of I've missed you and I'm never going to let you go! I don't even remember how smells, what was like to hug him, or kiss me or everything, but everything is going to be okay because in 2 weeks he will be home and the best part is he'll be home 2 DAYS before I graduate high school! Not only will I see him finish his mission which is an amazing mile stone for him but he'll see me finish high school which is an amazing mile stone in my life! The Lord has greatly bless both of us and because we both relied on him to help us get through this long distance that majority of couples couldn't do. WE DID IT!! WE MADE IT THROUGH THE IMPOSSIBLE! We probably wouldn't we both weren't committed to it and without his help I wouldn't be here typing up his exciting post! Not only he's changed but I've changed too! My patience's has grown exponentially and I've built a stronger testimony of the gospel! If my 2 years ago self saw me now she would be in shock and think wow!! I've learned a lot on this wait and if I could give a piece of advice to a new MG who thinks that its the end of the world. If its with the right person ,you're both committed, and you're both relying on God then your love for each other will sustained the storm of waiting because after a storm there's always a rainbow and I know it looks hard now but I promise they do come home and you'll be greatly blessed for obeying and being loyal to each other. THIS IS NOT THE END BUT ONLY THE BEGINNING! This journey has tough but triumphant! I won't trade it for the world! He's almost home!!! Thank you for all the encouragement and strength you've given me when I felt there was no end to this wait. The Lord's timing is always perfect!

From Start to Finish!

My first poster for the airport! This is my favorite one!

Second Poster! I love the gold glitter stars and letters!! 15 more days!