The One!

Lots of people say that long distance relationships never work. My favorite phrase when people tell me "Two Years is a long time!" or " You'll never make it through". Sometimes their right. Only if the people aren't right for one each other, but I know in my heart that James and I will work out. There's seriously no doubt in my mind that we won't make it. I always knew there was something special that drew me towards him and I hate being so far apart from him, but I know he's doing the right thing and he's down there in Argentina blessing the people down there!! I believe full heartily that when the right people are meant for each other than a mission are only strengthen  the relationship and make the love only grow stronger even more than everything in this world!! I know that James was the one for me through a remarkable experience! It was back in April, I believe 2 two weeks into our relationship and it was my spring break and one night I just couldn't fall asleep and so I got out of my bed and went over to my calender to look and I saw the place where I wrote " James comes home from college!" That's where I got my prompting to grab my patriarchal blessing and I grab it and I went straight to the where it said that I would be inspired in my choosing of a husband and I would know who this person is. When I fished reading it I was overcome with the spirit leaping for joy in my heart that James was The One for me! My heart still leaps for joy because I love him soo much!!! I would wait an eternity with the only meaning he'll come back to me and I know he will!! Our love will not only travel 6,369 miles. It would reach each of the four corners of the Earth and will travel through all eternity because that's how strong our is!! I've truly never felt this about anyone in my whole life! I've had a couple of boyfriends before not none has ever compare to what I feel about James! This time apart will only help us grow more towards each other. Nothing will ever compare to the eternity! I can't wait to be able to be sealed for all time and eternity to my best friend and my soul mate! Distance only makes the heart grow fonder! I'm a firm believer in that statement! If the person you love is the right person for you than they will wait for you! For you  and if they don't then obviously there's someone out there looking for someone like you! You just have to keep praying and keep looking! Heavenly Father will help you if you give your all to him!! I know I found the one for me!! Now we're down to 534 days!! Time is flying!! I love you Elder Madsen!! You'll forever be mine and I'll be forever yours!!

It'll reach every four corners of the Earth!!

Without You, I'm nothing! I love You!

 

My Saving Grace!

You know I think everyone has that one special person that we call our "Saving Grace". I know in my heart that I have my saving grace and that's James! Heavenly Father definitely works through us for others! You know all my life I never that I would be as Lucky as I am to have James in my life! He's been there through almost everything! So, long before James. I always kept saying to myself "Who on Earth will love a girl like me?! A girl who has gotten held twice in her life!! A girl who has barley anything to offer!" I never thought I was pretty, strong, or Even Smart! Because I thought only stupid people get held back! I hated the fact that I couldn't graduate with other people my age! But that all changed when James and I finally became a couple and began this Amazing Journey with him!! I swear I don't think there ever was a moment EVER that James never yet me forget that I was beautiful! He always told me that I'm Gorgeous and Beautiful!! I never thought I would ever have a man who loves me unconditionally!! I also remember back I think in May it was getting closer to graduation for the upcoming seniors that were my age and I cried to James that I hated being where I was at! He told me that "Tabi , you're the strongest person I've ever known and I know that you make it through this because that's the kind of person you are! That's one of the many reasons why I love you". I never really realize what I was capable of, but obviously James saw more in me than I did in myself! I truly believe that's one of many reasons why James is perfect for me is that he was sent to me to realize what an AMAZING DAUGHTER OF MY HEAVENLY FATHER THAT I AM!! I truly Thank my father in heaven for putting James in my life!! He was constantly helped me through so much! I seriously couldn't have asked for more!!! I just want to shout it to the world that I LOVE JAMES MADSEN!!! But, obvious my whole world is in Argentina being a Saving Grace to the people there!! They are so lucky to have him there!! He's a wonderful man and I Love Him full heartily!!! I've never truly believed in myself and never thought I was worth anything. I always thought I was a nobody! Then James came into my life and change that!! I don't think he knows how truly much he has changed me and have helped me see that I'm Beautiful Daughter of My Father in Heaven because he created me and set me to this Time on earth for a very special life mission! I know most definitely that James was a big part of my life!! And I'm eternally grateful!! I LOVE YOU ELDER MADSEN!! Thank you being apart of my life! God truly gave me you!!! Only 535 more days to go!!!! I Love you!!

Almost accurate to my prayers! ;)

Couldn't have said it better myself! :)

The Small Things!

You know lots of girls want to have their boyfriends to buy them lots gifts. For me, I really don't ask a lot even simple email or a handwritten letter will satisfy me because I know my boyfriend has a busy life and just that daily email every Monday just makes my week go by smoother. You know I think the littlest things makes the relationship last longer because you're showing the person that you love that you really love and want to show that everyday! You know I remember back in October that just before James left for Argentina when he got his visa that he sent his last letter from Detroit and sent me a bracelet but when he sent the bracelet it got lost in the mail and I was so upset about it because he sent there all that trouble to sent it to me and have it be lost and I was also upset to tell him and make him upset, but it worked out because I told him about it and I guess he mention it to his mom and I told her too that I was a little disappointed because I wanted something to look at and think of him and his sweet parents went to the mall and got me this beautiful sterling silver heart shaped bracelet and when his mom texted me that she had something to show me. I kept getting this prompting that it was a bracelet and when I open the box and found it was the bracelet. I thought it was the most beautiful bracelet I've ever seen in my life! It was to replace what got lost in the mail! His mom told me that I seemed like a grateful person and would've loved it no matter what kind of bracelet it was. Its true I am a very grateful person because coming from a family with minimal amount of money you learn to be grateful for what you have because you could be with out it, but knowing that they picked this heart shaped bracelet made me fell in love with it because I love anything with hearts! It represents Love, Kindness, Charity! Along with other meaningful definitions. Since then I haven't taken it off. I don't think I will ever take it off. I feel lost without it. I know its just a bracelet to some people, but its very precious to me! Just like the heart shaped necklace that my dad gave me on my 13th Birthday. Six months before he passed away from Colon cancer. Thats a different story that I'll tell another time. You know when something like that happens to you. You definitely embraces every moment and don't ever take things for granted. You appreciate the smallest things. I don't ask for a lot. I'm a happy camper to get an email every monday from my missionary because I know that just shows that he's thinking about and stills love me enough to talk to me and even though I don't get to text him every second of the day or stay up late talking until 2:00am, or even skype each other randomly like we used to. I'm okay with that because I know he's doing the Lord's work and working in his vineyard and seeing the fruits of his labors bloom and blossom and I know his happy! That's all I've ever wanted from him is to be happy! I'm so happy and proud of him!! I seriously couldn't have asked for a better man in my life! I can't wait to email him!! I love my tall, blonde cowboy!! Only one more week until he reaches 200 Days being out on his mission and only 536 more days until he comes home!! I Love You Elder Madsen!!

The lock part of the bracelet

I Love This Bracelet!!

Our Story!

Okay Since its like 12:51AM and I cant sleep I might as well blog!! Lol! I love being me! Anyways, I just thought I would write my story Of how James and I came from beings best friends to being lovers and still acting like best friends! So, our story begins August 2011, James and I met during band camp and he came up to me and talk to me first! At first I thought he was pretty cute for tall blonde! Haha! Anyway we instantly became friends. Then later on that fall season there was a trip to Silverdale for a marching band competition and while the whole band was lost in Truth and Dare games. James and I talked and got a deeper understanding of one another. The only thing I absolutely LOVE about James is his Baby Blue eyes!! On the way to Silverdale , some how we got on the topic of eyes and he told me that he loved my eyes and he was wearing his shades and I told him to take off his shades and I think thats when I fell in love with him but sadly at that time I was already in a relationship with one of friends which now looking back. Wasn't the best guy for me. I mean he treated me well. I guess we were too different. Anyways, I instantly just knew that there was something special about him and also when we held hands on that bus ride. When we held hands there was just instant spark we both felt and it was amazing and when we stop at CWU for dinner. After dinner, I went to the mini lobby they had and James and I held hands and just got lost in each other's eyes and it was just too perfect, but then I started to feel guilty because I didn't want to cheat on the guy I was currently dating and I told James that we can't do this to him because it isn't right and then we stay best friends and as the that school year went on. James had some rough patches because of things and who he was with and I can you this that every time a rough patch come up I was right there trying my best to help him because I wanted him to be happy and not feel terrible. There was a time that he distant himself from me because he things to figure out and became a little bitter and I didn't do anything. Its just of everything hes been through. After his graduation, he apologize and wanted to make it up to me by taking me on a date. Before I go on I wanna let you know that during that time that James distant from me the guy I was dating broke up with me so when I went on the date with James. I was single. Anyways, so he decide to treat me to Applebee's and to see "The Dark Knight Rises". So when that day came he drove up and you know most guys come to the door to get the girl. Nope, not James! He wasn't comfortable coming to doors and he was really nervous so he texted me saying that he was at my house and my mom didn't appreciate that he didn't come to the door. You know that still today I still give me a tease every once in a while! Anyways, we went to Applebee's and when he ordered and receive our food and while we were eating we just stop and stare at one another and I know this is going to sound cheesy but I could've swore that I saw a twinkle in his eye! It was so magical and then we went to go see the movie and in the back of my head I really wanted him to hold my hand. I was tempted to hold his hand but I chicken out! Afterwards, he drove me home and open my door and then gave me a hug. You know I found out that he wanted to kiss me on our first date but he got scared and nervous and didn't know what to do. So, I think two weeks later when I finally figure out my feelings and knew that I liked James alot I told him that he was like " Why didn't you tell me sooner?". He was getting ready to leave for BYU-ID. Then he texted me after I got home from a double date I went on saying " What would you if I just randomly showed up at your house?" I told him that I would go outside and find what he wanted. Then he told me that he has to tell me "something in person". So on that august day, I had to go babysit my little cousins because their mom had a doctor's appointment. He told me that I had to stay. So he raced down the highway after work. I was so glad that he didn't get a ticket. So when he got there I went outside to find what in the world was so important. Then he said " Its not what I want to tell you its what I want to show you." I was confused and then kissed me! It was the best kiss I've ever had! So then after that he asked me to be his girlfriend and we dated for a week. Then he broke up with me because he was scare about the long distance between us and I tried everything I could but he wouldn't budge so he broke up with me. I never cried so much over a guy after dating a week. After that I didn't talk to him for a couple of months and I didn't want to feel that awful pain inside of me so I started dating this other guy who I thought was sweet and I guess I used him just to make the pain that James left go away. Then sometime after home coming James texted me saying how sorry he was for the way he treated me and I forgave him and we started flirting and then I had to tell him that I was dating this other guy and then he stop flirting completely. Then the other guy I was dating broke up with me on New Years Eve. Then months past and then in March. James and I started texting again and then he said he missed me and I told him I did too and on the 21st of March he asked out again and on my birthday he skyped me and that was seriously the best birthday presents I've ever gotten!! So after that he came home from college to prepare himself for his mission and of course spend time with me ;-) and on June 19th he enter the MTC and the story still continues!! I love him soo much!!! I can't wait for him to come home!! Only 18 more months and 537 more Days to go!! I love my rebel cowboy <3

                                           This is our song!! He's my Cowboy and  I'm his angel :)

I love his Senior Picture!! Those eyes!! 

Strength Builder!!

Wow! Guys!! I seriously need motivation to keep up this blog!! So its after Christmas! and I hope everybody had a GREAT Christmas! I know I did! I got to go to James's house and be with his family when skyped home! Oh let me tell you! I wish I could go back! Because I loved every second of it! Even though I didn't get to talk to him just him and I . It was just as special to just hear his voice and actually see him! What made it sweeter was that when his mom and I saw mom we started crying because of we miss him! Also he bear his testimony in Spanish and it was so powerful!! I cried so much because I felt it and I don't need to hear it in English to know its true!!! I LOVE HIM SOO MUCH!!!! Words can't even begin to describe how much of amazement this is to know even know even more that we're PERFECT FOR EACH OTHER!!! Guys! I've never more sure about anybody in my whole life!! He's everything I could ever dream of!! Also he's lost al ot of weight and he looks even more Amazing!!! He's already lost up 20 pounds and he LOOKS AMAZING!! So on the 19th we hit the 6th month mark! 1/4 Done!! 18 more  months to go until he's in my arms for awhile until I go on my mission! I know that means the we'll be 3 1/2 years apart but its okay because Heavenly Father needs me to go and he knows whats best for us!! I'm so glad to have him in my life and I wouldn't change it for the world!! I can't believe that in 3 more months we will reach our one year anniversary!!! The best year of my life!! I seriously can't wait to be in his arms of unconditional love forever!! I don't know where I would be without him!! True Love never felt so surreal!!

Doesn't he Look Amazing?!?!

Only 3 more months until we hit 1 year!!

18 more Months to Go!! Only 538 more Days!

HOW SWEET IS THE WORK!!!