My Saving Grace!

You know I think everyone has that one special person that we call our "Saving Grace". I know in my heart that I have my saving grace and that's James! Heavenly Father definitely works through us for others! You know all my life I never that I would be as Lucky as I am to have James in my life! He's been there through almost everything! So, long before James. I always kept saying to myself "Who on Earth will love a girl like me?! A girl who has gotten held twice in her life!! A girl who has barley anything to offer!" I never thought I was pretty, strong, or Even Smart! Because I thought only stupid people get held back! I hated the fact that I couldn't graduate with other people my age! But that all changed when James and I finally became a couple and began this Amazing Journey with him!! I swear I don't think there ever was a moment EVER that James never yet me forget that I was beautiful! He always told me that I'm Gorgeous and Beautiful!! I never thought I would ever have a man who loves me unconditionally!! I also remember back I think in May it was getting closer to graduation for the upcoming seniors that were my age and I cried to James that I hated being where I was at! He told me that "Tabi , you're the strongest person I've ever known and I know that you make it through this because that's the kind of person you are! That's one of the many reasons why I love you". I never really realize what I was capable of, but obviously James saw more in me than I did in myself! I truly believe that's one of many reasons why James is perfect for me is that he was sent to me to realize what an AMAZING DAUGHTER OF MY HEAVENLY FATHER THAT I AM!! I truly Thank my father in heaven for putting James in my life!! He was constantly helped me through so much! I seriously couldn't have asked for more!!! I just want to shout it to the world that I LOVE JAMES MADSEN!!! But, obvious my whole world is in Argentina being a Saving Grace to the people there!! They are so lucky to have him there!! He's a wonderful man and I Love Him full heartily!!! I've never truly believed in myself and never thought I was worth anything. I always thought I was a nobody! Then James came into my life and change that!! I don't think he knows how truly much he has changed me and have helped me see that I'm Beautiful Daughter of My Father in Heaven because he created me and set me to this Time on earth for a very special life mission! I know most definitely that James was a big part of my life!! And I'm eternally grateful!! I LOVE YOU ELDER MADSEN!! Thank you being apart of my life! God truly gave me you!!! Only 535 more days to go!!!! I Love you!!

Almost accurate to my prayers! ;)

Couldn't have said it better myself! :)

The Small Things!

You know lots of girls want to have their boyfriends to buy them lots gifts. For me, I really don't ask a lot even simple email or a handwritten letter will satisfy me because I know my boyfriend has a busy life and just that daily email every Monday just makes my week go by smoother. You know I think the littlest things makes the relationship last longer because you're showing the person that you love that you really love and want to show that everyday! You know I remember back in October that just before James left for Argentina when he got his visa that he sent his last letter from Detroit and sent me a bracelet but when he sent the bracelet it got lost in the mail and I was so upset about it because he sent there all that trouble to sent it to me and have it be lost and I was also upset to tell him and make him upset, but it worked out because I told him about it and I guess he mention it to his mom and I told her too that I was a little disappointed because I wanted something to look at and think of him and his sweet parents went to the mall and got me this beautiful sterling silver heart shaped bracelet and when his mom texted me that she had something to show me. I kept getting this prompting that it was a bracelet and when I open the box and found it was the bracelet. I thought it was the most beautiful bracelet I've ever seen in my life! It was to replace what got lost in the mail! His mom told me that I seemed like a grateful person and would've loved it no matter what kind of bracelet it was. Its true I am a very grateful person because coming from a family with minimal amount of money you learn to be grateful for what you have because you could be with out it, but knowing that they picked this heart shaped bracelet made me fell in love with it because I love anything with hearts! It represents Love, Kindness, Charity! Along with other meaningful definitions. Since then I haven't taken it off. I don't think I will ever take it off. I feel lost without it. I know its just a bracelet to some people, but its very precious to me! Just like the heart shaped necklace that my dad gave me on my 13th Birthday. Six months before he passed away from Colon cancer. Thats a different story that I'll tell another time. You know when something like that happens to you. You definitely embraces every moment and don't ever take things for granted. You appreciate the smallest things. I don't ask for a lot. I'm a happy camper to get an email every monday from my missionary because I know that just shows that he's thinking about and stills love me enough to talk to me and even though I don't get to text him every second of the day or stay up late talking until 2:00am, or even skype each other randomly like we used to. I'm okay with that because I know he's doing the Lord's work and working in his vineyard and seeing the fruits of his labors bloom and blossom and I know his happy! That's all I've ever wanted from him is to be happy! I'm so happy and proud of him!! I seriously couldn't have asked for a better man in my life! I can't wait to email him!! I love my tall, blonde cowboy!! Only one more week until he reaches 200 Days being out on his mission and only 536 more days until he comes home!! I Love You Elder Madsen!!

The lock part of the bracelet

I Love This Bracelet!!

Our Story!

Okay Since its like 12:51AM and I cant sleep I might as well blog!! Lol! I love being me! Anyways, I just thought I would write my story Of how James and I came from beings best friends to being lovers and still acting like best friends! So, our story begins August 2011, James and I met during band camp and he came up to me and talk to me first! At first I thought he was pretty cute for tall blonde! Haha! Anyway we instantly became friends. Then later on that fall season there was a trip to Silverdale for a marching band competition and while the whole band was lost in Truth and Dare games. James and I talked and got a deeper understanding of one another. The only thing I absolutely LOVE about James is his Baby Blue eyes!! On the way to Silverdale , some how we got on the topic of eyes and he told me that he loved my eyes and he was wearing his shades and I told him to take off his shades and I think thats when I fell in love with him but sadly at that time I was already in a relationship with one of friends which now looking back. Wasn't the best guy for me. I mean he treated me well. I guess we were too different. Anyways, I instantly just knew that there was something special about him and also when we held hands on that bus ride. When we held hands there was just instant spark we both felt and it was amazing and when we stop at CWU for dinner. After dinner, I went to the mini lobby they had and James and I held hands and just got lost in each other's eyes and it was just too perfect, but then I started to feel guilty because I didn't want to cheat on the guy I was currently dating and I told James that we can't do this to him because it isn't right and then we stay best friends and as the that school year went on. James had some rough patches because of things and who he was with and I can you this that every time a rough patch come up I was right there trying my best to help him because I wanted him to be happy and not feel terrible. There was a time that he distant himself from me because he things to figure out and became a little bitter and I didn't do anything. Its just of everything hes been through. After his graduation, he apologize and wanted to make it up to me by taking me on a date. Before I go on I wanna let you know that during that time that James distant from me the guy I was dating broke up with me so when I went on the date with James. I was single. Anyways, so he decide to treat me to Applebee's and to see "The Dark Knight Rises". So when that day came he drove up and you know most guys come to the door to get the girl. Nope, not James! He wasn't comfortable coming to doors and he was really nervous so he texted me saying that he was at my house and my mom didn't appreciate that he didn't come to the door. You know that still today I still give me a tease every once in a while! Anyways, we went to Applebee's and when he ordered and receive our food and while we were eating we just stop and stare at one another and I know this is going to sound cheesy but I could've swore that I saw a twinkle in his eye! It was so magical and then we went to go see the movie and in the back of my head I really wanted him to hold my hand. I was tempted to hold his hand but I chicken out! Afterwards, he drove me home and open my door and then gave me a hug. You know I found out that he wanted to kiss me on our first date but he got scared and nervous and didn't know what to do. So, I think two weeks later when I finally figure out my feelings and knew that I liked James alot I told him that he was like " Why didn't you tell me sooner?". He was getting ready to leave for BYU-ID. Then he texted me after I got home from a double date I went on saying " What would you if I just randomly showed up at your house?" I told him that I would go outside and find what he wanted. Then he told me that he has to tell me "something in person". So on that august day, I had to go babysit my little cousins because their mom had a doctor's appointment. He told me that I had to stay. So he raced down the highway after work. I was so glad that he didn't get a ticket. So when he got there I went outside to find what in the world was so important. Then he said " Its not what I want to tell you its what I want to show you." I was confused and then kissed me! It was the best kiss I've ever had! So then after that he asked me to be his girlfriend and we dated for a week. Then he broke up with me because he was scare about the long distance between us and I tried everything I could but he wouldn't budge so he broke up with me. I never cried so much over a guy after dating a week. After that I didn't talk to him for a couple of months and I didn't want to feel that awful pain inside of me so I started dating this other guy who I thought was sweet and I guess I used him just to make the pain that James left go away. Then sometime after home coming James texted me saying how sorry he was for the way he treated me and I forgave him and we started flirting and then I had to tell him that I was dating this other guy and then he stop flirting completely. Then the other guy I was dating broke up with me on New Years Eve. Then months past and then in March. James and I started texting again and then he said he missed me and I told him I did too and on the 21st of March he asked out again and on my birthday he skyped me and that was seriously the best birthday presents I've ever gotten!! So after that he came home from college to prepare himself for his mission and of course spend time with me ;-) and on June 19th he enter the MTC and the story still continues!! I love him soo much!!! I can't wait for him to come home!! Only 18 more months and 537 more Days to go!! I love my rebel cowboy <3

                                           This is our song!! He's my Cowboy and  I'm his angel :)

I love his Senior Picture!! Those eyes!! 

Strength Builder!!

Wow! Guys!! I seriously need motivation to keep up this blog!! So its after Christmas! and I hope everybody had a GREAT Christmas! I know I did! I got to go to James's house and be with his family when skyped home! Oh let me tell you! I wish I could go back! Because I loved every second of it! Even though I didn't get to talk to him just him and I . It was just as special to just hear his voice and actually see him! What made it sweeter was that when his mom and I saw mom we started crying because of we miss him! Also he bear his testimony in Spanish and it was so powerful!! I cried so much because I felt it and I don't need to hear it in English to know its true!!! I LOVE HIM SOO MUCH!!!! Words can't even begin to describe how much of amazement this is to know even know even more that we're PERFECT FOR EACH OTHER!!! Guys! I've never more sure about anybody in my whole life!! He's everything I could ever dream of!! Also he's lost al ot of weight and he looks even more Amazing!!! He's already lost up 20 pounds and he LOOKS AMAZING!! So on the 19th we hit the 6th month mark! 1/4 Done!! 18 more  months to go until he's in my arms for awhile until I go on my mission! I know that means the we'll be 3 1/2 years apart but its okay because Heavenly Father needs me to go and he knows whats best for us!! I'm so glad to have him in my life and I wouldn't change it for the world!! I can't believe that in 3 more months we will reach our one year anniversary!!! The best year of my life!! I seriously can't wait to be in his arms of unconditional love forever!! I don't know where I would be without him!! True Love never felt so surreal!!

Doesn't he Look Amazing?!?!

Only 3 more months until we hit 1 year!!

18 more Months to Go!! Only 538 more Days!

HOW SWEET IS THE WORK!!!

Gratefulness

Its so Amazing how Grateful to have James in my life!! He is definitely my extra boost to everything. Even when I'm happy he makes it even better! When even I'm having the worst of days he always knows the right thing to say to make it better. I love him so Much!! I still can't believe its been 6 Amazing months that we've been together! It still blows my mind because I haven't had a long relationship like this since my freshman year and its so nice to have someone who truly cares for you, that love's you until the end of times and past that, and just make you feel wanted. Heavenly Father has definitely got some plans for us in the future. I know not right now, but definitely later on down the road. I truly have never had any guy who treats me how I should be treated. Shows and says that he Love me. He really does and I don't know where I would be if I didn't have him around. Especially, right now.  He's definitely been the one of the greatest blessing I've ever gotten. I know I post a lot about him, but I just want to make sure if James ever reads this blog which I hope he will when he come home. That he'll see that whole world will know that I love him and nobody else! Its like that song from Josh Turner "Soul mate"  "We've got a special bond that'll never break". Its so true! So this week in his weekly e-mails he sent me pictures and an Amazing e-mail! I know that will make it through this and know that we can make it through anything big or small. My life has been a lot better than the last with him and I couldn't have asked for a better man in my life! He loves me so much and I see it in this letters and e-mails and in everything! I just felt that I needed to write a grateful blog post for him! Here are some of his pictures that he sent me :)

" Guess who had the Bigger Roar?" ;)

"More Power to Missionary Work!"

6 Month Anniversary!!

Wow! I can't believe that today marks six months that James and I have been together!! Its crazy!! It feels so much longer that we've been together. I guess that's how true love is suppose to feel. I know that most of these six months has been apart ' but I've never felt more closer to him than ever before!! James's is my life,my best friend, and everything that I could ask for in a man. He's taught me so much and I've taught him so much!! I can't wait for him to come home to me and so that we can start our lives together. It's amazing how much you love a person more when their far away from you than when their only 25 minutes away! When I started out on this journey I had a friend told me this phrase and I've never forgotten it "Distances Makes the Heart Grow Fonder". The phrase is so simple, but full of meaning! These past three months that he's been gone was never been more fire added to our love and it phenomenal how much we're growing as a person and towards one another as couple and becoming one mind, one heart, and one soul. I know in my heart that Heavenly Father definitely had a hand in this relationship because when we first tried to be a couple he got scared and blew me off. Then in March, we finally realized that we both love each other and wanted to be with each other and the rest is history! I'm so glad we're together and that we want to be in each others lives and I love him so much! And I can't wait for the 6 months and see how far we've grown and love each other more than ever!! :D That's about it for now! Thank You to all the people who has been helping through my rough days and that support me. You're all Amazing!!!

Huge Update!

Alright! I know its been a long time since I've posted something on here. Let's update! So James is waiting on visa so for now he's in Detroit, Michigan. He's doing such a phenomenal job over there!!He's already had 3 to 4 baptisms!! I'm so proud of him!! Today marks his 3rd month done with his mission!! I'm glad we've both made it through it! This month has been really hard on me with him being away from me, but i know its not the end and its not forever! Just for now! I'm so excited for Saturday because that's are 6 months being together!! I know most of it has been far apart, but it has definitely brought us even closer together! I love him so Much!!! I cant wait for him to come home!! He's been having a lot of investigators!! That's about it on him. For me, well school's started again and Ive been kinda stressed out about it, but praying and reading my scriptures has been helping a lot. I knew it was going to be a challenge when James's left, but I never thought it was this hard! But because of this I've become much stronger than I've ever had in my life. Its been such a blessing knowing that I can definitely do hard things!! I cant believe that it'll be 6 months for James and I. Its been a very long time since I've been in a relationship this long! I'm so excited to find out what the next 6 months holds out for us!! I love him forever and always!! That's about it for now! Stay strong my fellow MG's and whoever is reading this! You can do it!

This is of the members that James taught a little bit. Then she got baptize :D